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am I wrong if i feel sadness????

Sesuatu yg kita kira bakal berjalan baik ternyata gak selamanya sesuai dengan harapan kita. Apa salah jika aku merasa terluka?? apa aku harus selalu berpura-pura kuat sedangkan hatiku sedang benar2 rapuh.... Kadang aku berharap aku tidak diberikan rasa cinta oleh tuhan.. agar aku tidak merasakan sakitnya terluka..kadang aku berharap aku mempunyai hati batu, agar aku tidak merasa bersalah padahal orang lain yg melakukan kesalahan. apa aku tidak boleh merasakan sakit?? salah kah? semua orang pasti merasa sakit jika dilukai, merasa tersinggung bila dibuat tersinggung.. apa aku tidak boleh merasa seperti itu?? mungkin aku harus terus tersenyum, tertawa padahal hatiku ini sangat merasa sakit....
Andai saja tuhan menganugerahkan aku hati yg keras, dimana aku tidak peduli bila orang lain sakit, tidak peduli bila orang lain merasa tidak nyaman, tapi sungguh aku tidak bisa... inikah kelemahanku? sehingga aku mudah untuk diperdaya dan dibuat sakit.. selama ini aku selalu memikirkan perasaan…

everything its ok right now

i feel better right now... not feel alone again, not feel sad again... my lovely boy really really said that he love me, and said 'sorry' when he make my heart hurt about 3 days ago.... i even think that he never feel what my feel recently,, but everything i think is not right.. he love me and said that he want to be my boyfriend... i feel really really happy right now...... oooooh .... thanks god... u gave me a happiness with his love to me....i'm sory.. i ever said that i don't want life again.... please forgive me god..^^

I LOVEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUU MY BOY....

*blush*.

toma... such been a long time i'm not really know about you.. i'm sory dear... my day recently is really2 confuse,, so i think i 'm a bit forgotten you...ahahahahhahaha....
YAY... hanakimi SP will be air tonight... don't forget to watch..^^.. stay tune at your tv and wait for hanakimi SP.. i think hanakimi SP its really great ne...^^. i miss nakatsu, i miss kanashiyama, i miss nanba senpa…

hisashiburi + my failed day....

hisashiburi da ne ... minna... so long time until i can write entry to this blog again. i'm sick for 3 days ago. now, i feel better. don't forget to say,, EID MUBARAK minna... i'm sorry for my fault. c'mon, lets do it again together.

i feel very down.. very very down. why my lovely boy playing me???? what's my fault?? may be he not really know that i' really really loves him, dear him and want to see his smile everytime, everywhere but he always make my heart hurt. am i wrong if i feel love him?????? i'm crying now, my tears cannot hold again. he said to me that he love me but in fact... he not really love me, he just playing me.... oh please.. god... am i wrong????? i feel lonely.. my friend same with him. playing me... make me crying right now. i want scream, i want cry, i dont want life again... how your feel if your lovely boy bull u??? i just want dear him, make him smile... but he always make me cry. however, i have love him since 3 years ago....why g…