Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Lha and her childish side..

cuaca sekarang buruk sekali ya minna... jaga kesehatan. soalnya cuaca yang buruk ini bikin suasana hati juga buruk.. gw sekarang lagi terkena melancholic syndrom,.. tiap liat ujan bawaannya pengen nangis.. *ditendang ke arab* gw sekarang lagi gemeteran,... *daritadi ga ada yang nanya kondisi lo kok! *

intinya... human being tte nani? ningen tte nani? selama ini apa gw sudah menjadi 'human being' itu? apa gw bisa menangis karna memang hati gw ingin? apa gw bisa tertawa atau tersenyum karena emang hati gw ingin? ato gw cuman ngikutin pilot otomatis yang ada di tubuh gw, menuruti setiap event yang terjadi, gw marah kalo tersinggung, sedangkan ekspresi di hati gw masih belum berubah. semua masih datar... datte, ningen tte nandayo?

gw ga pernah bisa jujur sama orang yang paling deket sama gw,, hontou ni gomenasai.. setelah dipush buat cerita gw baru bisa cerita.. gw tau kok itu ga bagus, tapi kalo gw cerita gw selalu mikirin efeknya kalo gw cerita.. gw takut orang yang paling deket sama gw itu tersinggung, marah, nangis, ato malah yang paling buruk jadi ngeblame dirinya sendiri. gw selalu berfikir bahwa ini masalah gw, gw ga mau dia terlibat kedalamnya, gw mau liat dia senyum, cuman itu. gw mau dia ga mikirin apa yang gw pikirin.. karna apa yang gw pikirin benar-benar sesuatu yang akan membuat dia menangis. gw ga mau... gw tau ini berlebihan tapi gw sayang orang itu dan ingin melindungi dia.. gw tau ini childish, gw tau pada akhirnya ketika dia tau bukan dari gw dia akan marah sama gw, tapi tolong mengerti,, ini gw lakukan untuk orang terdekat sama gw itu juga.. T_T gw ga mau dia nangis... cukup liat dia senyum, cukup denger ketawa dia.. gw rasa cukup..

gw ingin semuanya lengkap. dia ada, sahabat terdekat gw ada, orang-orang yang berharga buat gw ada disisi gw.. itu semua adalah kado terindah buat idup gw. gw ga suka perubahan.. gw benci perubahan sebenernya. gw benci kalo sesuatu itu tidak sesuai dengan apa yang gw pikirkan. dakara...

kalo gw ngelakuin hal yang buruk, kalo gw mulai terlihat menyembunyikan sesuatu, kalo gw udah ada di titik frustasi gw, maukah kalian berdua ngulurin tangan itu buat gw? maukah kalian ngusap airmata gw? karena orang yang paling berharga buat gw didunia ini cuman ada 2...

yaitu kalian...

bye-bee..

Monday, December 6, 2010

Meh...

yo! gimana kabarnya kawan? sekarang pake bahasa ibu aja ah... next post kita pake eigo lagi. tehe~ XD sekarang masih dengan game.. ore to game wa UNMEI dakara~ (seorang nino lagi teriak didalam diri sendiri) LOL errr.... akhir-akhir ini omongan gw tajam terus yak.. menusuk hati orang.. (perasaan dari dulu udah gitu lha? haha) tapi sekarang gw lebih sadis... coba aneh kan? mungkin ini emang true self gw kali yak.. tehe~

mulai dari gw yang sering bikin orang kesel karena keliatan cuek, ampe gw yang dibilang dingin. sebenernya bukan cuek, bukan juga dingin.. cuman lagi males aja. sekarang, kalo ada orang yang lagi punya masalah, gw emang keliatan lebih ga gitu peduli, bukan karena ga peduli, tapi gw males angkat tangan kalo itu masalah mereka dan mereka ga butuh solusi ataupun penyelesaian ataupun bantuan dari gw, juga gw PALING MALES!! kalo ada orang yang keliatan pengen curhat tapi pas dikasih pendapat sama gw malah balik nyerang gw.. HEH?! LU YANG CURHAT SAMA GW! NAPA LU YANG NGAMUK?!
intinya gw sekarang lagi males dengerin curhat orang yang isinya cuman "gw pengen mati.. ga ada yg peduli sama gw.. " atau "kenapa sih hidup ini selalu ga adil? "

-_______-" <--- ini adalah ekspresi gw ketika gw menerima sms yang isinya begini. heeh ~~

gw juga LAGI MALES NERIMA SMS!.. bukan cuman nerima tapi BALES SMS.. dan klo ga bales dibilang cuek, dibilang sombong... whatsoever. gw lagi males juga.. (sarcasm lagi)
intinya hidup menjadi seorang otaku yang tidak punya terlalu banyak teman dan mempunyai banyak fantasi di otaknya adalah hal yang paling menyenangkan. ga perlu mikirin idup, ga perlu mikirin masalah orang lain yang ga ada urusannya sama gw, ga perlu so' senyum depan orang padahal ga niat, ga perlu PALSU!! hohoho.. hidup yang menyenangkan bukan? gw idup emang my pace banget dah.., tapi ini cara gw nikmatin idup gw... hohoho

sekarang mau maen, KINGDOM HEARTS.. terus lanjutin tokimeki 2nd, lanjutin FMA.. dan beres!! selanjutnya mau donlot tokimeki 3rd sama starry sky... kayaknya seru. tapi sebelumnya...

gw mau ganti RAM dulu dah.. -______-"
ga asik banget maen sambil suaranya kek robot keselek duren..

ja~

bye-bee~ :D

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Utsukushiki Sekai......

konnichiwa~ *ah but this is night, okay I'll say Konbanwa.. haha XD* how are you, minna? this time I'll write loooong loooong very long entry~~ LOL.. recently, I was playing Tokimeki Memorial Girl's Side : 1st Love, and forgot all the things that I have to do such as, studying and take a bath~~~ and sleeping too.. that's why today I'm so damn sleepy, = 3=. but, whatsoever.. this tired feeling was PAID OFF!!!!! because I can get LEAD MALE CHARACTER THE PRINCE HAZUKI KEI-SAMA just in a week!!! okay okay.. I've failed for three times and got bad ending with my little brother tsukushi but in order to get beautiful ending, I try.. try and try and PAID OFF!! now, the prince is mine... the prince's smile is mine!! and his beautiful clover ring now in my finger!! *okay that's just in the game, so don't say that I'm totally crazy.. hohoho*

start from the prologue, the voice of cute boy tell the story about the prince who met beautiful princess in his journey... he's fall in love with the princess... and after a damn long prologue, the story begin... the mysterious cute boy -ehmKeiehm- said that he promises will tell about the story soon.. and he must leave..
not like the other game simulation, Tokimeki is the HARD GAME FOR ME!! *dies* I have to fulfill the parameters in order to get a sweetest guy Hazuki Kei and you know what.... that's very hard!! his standard is really really high.. and I have to fulfill that, imagine that.. that's why I've failed for three times!! T___T

autumn picnic time
in first time, I am bit shocked when get this CG event..I made him a bento in a great autumn leaves~ aaaah beautiful~ and Kei, who secretly hate vegetable said that he doesn't want the sprout.. his childish side is cute!! Kei you're cute!!

Me : Kei-kun.. why you don't eat the sprout?
Kei : I don't want.. if you want, I'll give it to you..
Me : *sigh and bit skinship in his arm*
Kei : what is it?
Me : hmm.. nothing..just thinking, Mr. Sprout must be sad because you don't want eat him (I'm sorry for my terrible translate, but at all, I said this.. huhuhu )
Kei : Mr.Sprout?

aaah!! I forgot what I've said in this CG, but after all he want to eat my Bento and got BOOST AFFECTION!! wuhuuuu~~

Being chased by his fans
Okay.. next is my favorite CG event!!! Kei cool face with his sexy finger on his mouth in a spring when being chased by his fans is.... MAKE ME DYING TO THE HAPPINESS!!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaa~~ Kei hugged me and put his finger on his mouth.. damn you are so sexy Kei!! *drooling* got boost affection in this event because I do skinship for FOUR TIMES! great!

Modeling together
i understand this CG event will show up if my charm parameters above 120.. O_o and well done! i got this CG event... GREAT GREAT!! in the day of my part-time job, in the studio, Kei suddenly tell me that the model woman was injuried and he needs me to be his model!! O_O HE HUGGED MEEEEEE!! you know what I feel when seeing this CG?? I'm dying for multiple times!!!! gosh~~ sexy~ his arm is in my neck.. and and.. waaaaaa~~ you have to play it by yourself, then you could understand what I feel.. got so many love points for this CG event.. nice!

Christmas Party
and this beautiful great CG event in christmas when I'm in 3rd year... his charm face... and his smooth voice.. I LOVE YOU KEI!!

Kei : Thanks for today..
Me : Ah, Kei-kun..
Kei : Tsuki, do you have some time?
Me : Why?
Kei : Let's take a walk...to the sea.
Me : The sea? ...At night?
Kei : Yes...let's go.
Me : Wow, it's brighter than I thought, the sea at night...
Kei : The moon came out tonight.
Kei : Kei-kun, you come here often?
Kei : Sometimes...The streets are so bright they can be seen from far away.
Me : Un...
Kei : All those lights are where people live, laughing and being angry – just living.
Kei : At night, my eyes are awakened, and the feeling of being alone in this world... When I come here to think I feel at peace.
Me : Kei-kun...
Kei : It's almost time...
Me : ?
Kei :Look over at the Seaside Park.
Me : Ah, it's a Christmas tree!
Kei : ...Wonderful, isn't it? From here, it looks like it's floating on the water. When I saw it last year, I thought I had to let you see it.
Me : By last year, do you mean last Christmas?
Kei : Yes, it was very hard for me to keep silent about it.
Me : ...For this past year, you've been persevering not to say it?
Kei : ...Is it weird?
Me : Ahaha! Of course it's weird! Kei-kun.
Kei : Haha... I guess so. It must be a little weird. ...But for me, it's good enough to see you smile like that.
Kei :Tsuki... Merry Christmas. I'm glad you came.

credit : in utsukushiki sekai fansite by
gummibear

*dying covered in blood* gosh this CG event make me blushing, and.. all the feeling that I can't say.. Kei you're the sweetest one!!!! huwaaaaaaaaaa

FINALLY...

Hazuki Kei beautiful ending
After three times I've failed playing this game, I thought maybe I'll get bad ending again with my dude little brother Tsukushi ... Graduation, say good bye to class, to the coridor, to the yard.. and then finally.. see the church.. in entrance ceremony, I met Kei and he helped me to get up and give me his hand.. wow~ that time, I have crush with him.. in first sight.. i Thought.. "haah.. the church's door must be locked again.. this time.. I'll get bad ending again.. hopeless.." and.. SHOCKING!! IT SHOCKED ME A LOT!! THE DOOR OF THE CHURCH WAS UNLOCKED!! haaaaaaah~~ I feel like I wanna scream through the world that, FINALLY I GOT THE ENDING! I CAN SEE THE ENDING!! *tears* when I opened the church's door, the voice of cute boy suddenly appeared.. said "I have to go.. to live with my father in faraway place.. the prince will come.. I promise.. don't cry again.. "

suddenly the door opened!!!! and I can see the shadow of someone! gosh~~ I feel like I wanna crying in happiness that time.. T_T Kei suddenly appear.. and you know what it means?? THAT'S MEAN I GOT HIS ENDING!!!!!! finally~~ gosh~~

here the translate of his lovely ending... waw~~
Y: Hazuki-kun...
K: So... You're here after all.
K: ...Have you been crying?
Y: I...
K: ...Princess. I have returned from my journey through the forests to come back to you.
K: To be back here with you again... and to have you welcome me back.
Y: Hazuki-kun...
K: Do you remember the book we read together, and the vow we made to each other in this church?
Y: ...yes.
K: Please do stop crying.
Y: Nn. ...Hazuki-kun, you still remember...?
K: ... On the day of the entrance ceremony, in front of this very church, when we met...
K: I knew it then. That you were the one, despite the fact that you had changed.
Y: Is that... so?
K: Aa... Because your happy smile was one and the same.
K: It brought me back to the time we met in the church.
Y: So... what made you come here today?
K: That we would be leaving this place... I kept thinking of it, of the fact that we would eventually have to part...
K: I kept wondering if it was okay for us to be apart.
Y: I see...
K: But, as I thought of you and your smile, I began to feel anger towards myself...
K: I didn't want it to be that way... so I quickly came into this church.
K: Back then, when I reached out my hand to you to help you up, I recalled that you said you would always be waiting for me...
K: It was in those few seconds, that I discovered my feelings for you again.
K: But, as you graduate today with me... I remembered the day I held your hand to make the promise...
K: As you stood here before me, I wondered if you had forgotten about our promise, and if the feelings that you had would have disappeared as well.
K: But, as time went by, I began to hope for the longest time that you hadn't lost that memory.
K: I... I don't ever want you to leave me. So...
K: tsuki , I've returned to you.
Y: I... Hazuki-kun...
Y: I, I knew in my heart, that Hazuki-kun would come back, it's what I've always hoped for...
K: And now, on this very day, I will fulfill that promise we made...
K: Always, and to end the tale, now, you...

[cuts to scene where Kei puts the ring on my finger]

Y: Pretty (AW: Kirei)... Is that for me?
K: Aa. I was going to give it to you at Christmas, but now seems like a better time...
Y: Nn... Is that... a clover?
K: Aa...
K: The prince that has been journeying has finally reunited with the one waiting for him.
K: The clover ring is a symbol of the promise he made to the princess, who had sworn to wait for his return...
K: "I will use all I have here to bring you the happiness you desire, and the both of us will be together forever." (he's quoting the end of the story, folks!)
Y: Forever...
K: Forever.
K: I love you... (AW: Aishiteru)
K: The both of us will be together forever, and our own story will begin from here.

credit : tokimemo fansite


GREAT!! .. you know.. now. I know what piece that has been lost in my heart.. beside of her, I lost the thing that everyone have. the word of "love". and TMGS has returned that piece that has been lost in my life again... thanks Hazuki Kei.. thanks for all your smile and love.. thanks for someone who recommended this game.. thanks for ALL YOU LOVE GUYS!!! I LOVE YOU!

and.. the reason I changed my tittle blogs because.. Utsukushiki Sekai is based on Tokimeki Memorial Girl's Side : 1st love.

see... isn't this very long entry?? LOL

okay~~ next entry will be updated soon~~ yahooo~~

bye-bee~~ XD