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Kibou tte nani?

kali ini mau berbicara pake indo ah, biar sedikit keren.. *halah* XD harapan itu apa sih? kenapa kita harus punya harapan? daridulu.. saya ga pernah berani punya harapan, saya tau batasan saya berharap... pada akhirnya gw tau harapan yang gw impikan itu pun tidak pernah kenyataan. berharap akan senyuman, kebahagiaan... bukan gw nyerah sama kehidupan, bukan juga gw ga percaya sama pengharapan. tapi, bukannya berharap sama artinya dengan menunggu kepastian yang tak kunjung tiba? menunggu hayalan berubah menjadi sebuah realita?

Jika tau batasan berharap, rasanya jadi takut. takut suatu hari harapan itu menjadi kekosongan. bukankah jika harapan itu terlalu melambung tinggi apabila suatu hari jatuh rasanya sama seperti mati?

gw bukan menyerah.. bukan pula tidak mau berpegang pada janji-Nya. bahwa beliau akan membahagiakan setiap umatnya, tapi.. gw hanya menerima keadaan. terlalu banyak berharap juga tidak baik, bukan? yang sakit bukan kita aja.. tp orang lain yang melihatnya. itulah mengapa …

the scar is prove that the past was there~

hello everyone~ how are you? well,, yeah my mood is getting better these days.. maybe not these days but today! yeay! :D

anyway.. two days ago, me and my sister was talking about our past.. ah precisely, about my child's period. she said that my past is real~ well.. real bad! haha XD she said I just stepped daughter because my mother treat me really bad.. I'm not as sad as before, but yeah.. the scar is there.. it never changed.. even though she's getting better, it means she never treat me as bad as before but my trauma of rejected still there.. is that the prove that the past is real? well.. let's leave the sad one..

NOW I'M ON GIRL MOOD!! hahahahaha.. wait, that's not mean that I'm girly these days, but yeah.. I feel like a girl these days.. maybe the cause of this is.... LOVE?

bleh.. my love just for my Oz Vessalius and Shitara Seiji.. but that 'prince' and 'butler' always bother my brain~~ aargh! that's not mean that I'm in love wi…